Homosexuality & the church...

I don't want to beat a dead horse, but I just want this to be known...

I really struggle with this belief of "homosexuality" being a sin. That being homosexual is this absolutely terrible thing. That being homosexual is something you can control. That being homosexual is something to be frowned upon. That homosexuality is breaking up churches...

I'm getting sick of hearing about people leaving churches, and churches pulling out of the senate because homosexual clergy was approved... People freak out and pull out... It's really irritating me to hear these stories.

This may be a huge stretch, but people were born white, black, brown... They had no control of it. People who are gay don't CHOOSE to be gay (at least most of my loved ones who are...). It's usually something they are ashamed of, and don't want to admit to, but then they finally realize they don't want to deny themselves love like the rest of the "straight" people in the world...

Homosexuality is a sin? I don't get it... Again, maybe it's a stretch, but being born black is a sin, being born with blue eyes is a sin... I don't get it...

I get how stealing, killing, committing adultery, etc is a sin. It's something that hurts other people. How is being a homosexual hurting anyone?

I get that homosexuality isn't "normal". God talks about men and women... IDK. I just don't get it. and it's eating me up...

My other question, is why do we get so wrapped up and focused on what the bible says on these issues. Why can't we just, idk, not!? haha. I just want to love and accept people. If they are hurting themselves, as someone who cares and loves, I should step in and help, but how is homosexuality hurting them?

This blog is probably not well thought out... But I'm being as transparent as I can get. I think this is ridiculous. I am really upset. If anyone can help me see why homosexuality is so awful, I'd appreciate your opinion. And if anyone can help me by telling me I'm on the right track here, that could be great too! hahaha. I'm just peaved...

Lord, help me to be calm and patient as I am trying to figure out these things for myself... I pray for strength and continued guidance as I am pushed and pulled from differing points of views, especially those that are so powerful and definite and frustrating...